Fried green tomatoes

Friends that tell you, "An F for FAITHFULNESS is an A+ in God's eyes", are the kind you should keep around.

I made an awesome formula sheet.
I reviewed.
I paid attention in class.
I did what I knew.

I failed.
Jesus still loves me.
And He's gonna get me through these last few weeks of classes keeping my GPA above a 3.0.
Engineering is not for me. I want it to be. It just isn't.



Saying that is like a billion pounds being lifted off my face. hah
Still need to finish this semester A's and B's. It's rough. bleh.

Lunar

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
— Steve Jobs

Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind.
— Albert Einstein

To believe in something, and not live it, is dishonest.
— Mohandas Gandhi

Lots of firsts tonight..

Story time.
8:00 pm- Pick Kyla and Chelsea up and head to the tree! Yay!
8:05pm- Oh! I'm not forgetting to take that new way to church tonight, you know the short cut through Livingstone? I remembered this week. Shortcut ftw.
8:20pm- Okay we have been on this road way to stinking long this is SO not right. It's shorter not longer, what the heck?!
8:25pm- Turning around.
8:30pm- Back to where I started pretty much. Officially gonna be late to the Tree. BOOOO!
8:38pm-Ahh okay back on track, we're prolly only gonna be 15 minutes late. It's all good, we'll still make it tonight, SO close!!
8:40pm- Oh, what pretty blue and red lights.
8:41pm- License and registration please.
8:43pm- Yeah, maam this is expired. (Meanwhile I'm still searching for my Insurance cause idk where I keep it...I've never been pulled over!..)
8:45pm- Found it!! Where'd the officer go? (Chelsea is still on the phone with my mom, who I had her call cause I didn't know where anything was at...in my own car ha. Needless to say, my mom flipped out exponentially worse than I did. I'm kind of amazed how cool I stayed even frantically looking for my stuff...that was all Jesus!
8:50pm- Is he coming back? What the heck!?
8:55pm- ...what is he doing?! I'm not getting out of my car, I'd be like one of those episodes on C.O.P.S where they tase the retard who didn't "remain inside the vehicle". D00d hurry up. I'm tryna get to church!
9:00pm- Takes my real license and registration.
9:05pm- Officer says- okay I'm just gonna let you off with a warning. Slow down.
9:07pm- What do I do now? Do I wait for him to give me something? Can I leave? What do I do!?
9:10pm- Oh, okay he's leaving. We're good.
9:11pm- Guess that means no tree. Bummer.

Moral of the story?
Giving up my speed demon tendencies.

Haunting.

Got this in an email today from one of my leaders. I'm not putting my two cents into anyone's head. I think you can make something of the statement on your own.
It's a wake up call.
Stop pushing snooze

...Be His hands and feet.

“Josh McDowell said that if kids don't come to know Christ by the age of twelve they probably won't. (No pressure for those of us who work in Children's Ministry :)) Statistically speaking, the number of kids coming to salvation between
the ages of 12-18 has dropped from 36% to 4%. The reason he gave for this is that kids are being bombarded with information. This bombarding is causing skepticism rather than certainty when it comes to their faith.”

The joys of Plant City, FL.

That is all.

Much classier

than who you prove to be.

Make up your mind

It's gonna sound like there is absolutely no relevance in the things i write on this post, but it makes sense for me. So just be confused..
There are times when I feel like some people were created to make me smile, some to push me, and even a few to drive me absolutely crazy. Sometimes one person encapsulates all three. That's when I find it easy to let go. To forget everything anyone ever told me about how not to be naive, and let go. And that's okay. But not when I'm made to feel like that wasn't enough. That me completely letting go just wasn't good enough. What hoop did I miss? What line did I cross? Can you make up your mind instead of letting my mind go crazy wondering what's going on in your head? Please.
I think I have some kind of sign on my forehead that says, "Make her happy, then confuse the hell out of her and don't give her a reason!" Seriously. I'm at the point of not having a care or worry in the world, yet at the same time worrying my fool head off. I am so afraid of failure I literally shut down and shut everything out. Make it stop.
Oh and am I really not worth being told the honest truth? Is it that difficult to face the facts or is it just easier to be in total denial. I think it's cowardly and I think it's the lowest blow anyone could give to someone. Not being worth the truth. Lied to.
Why are we taught to believe that other people' happiness comes before honesty? Frankly, how can I be happy in the situation if I have no idea what's going on. But keep on keepin things from me and I'll be happy as a peach, right? NOPE. Even if it's the worst thing in the world, and you think it's gonna break me. I'll think so much higher of you if you have the morals to be honest. The honesty will stick by your name in my book. But if I have to find out another way, that makes me pretty bitter, and disappointed.

I sound like a complaining-diva-brat-jerk-spoiled-high maintenance-terd.
But sometimes, I need to.

BTW, Captivated by Stefani Germanotta (aka Lady Gaga) is wonderful.

I fell over my feet, like bricks under water.

My daily verse for today was so stinkin awesome.
I Corinthians 2:9
No one has ever imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him.

After experiencing some interesting weeks recently, this verse is so refreshing. To me, it's like...Sasha, Ima let you finish dreaming, but God has the BEST plan ever for your life. Haha, but really! God is clearly telling us He has the most beautiful and unimaginable life planned for us. That we should not waste our time trying to pick it apart and figure it all out. No matter how good we think we are at seeing our future, we stink at it in comparison to the Lord. In my quest to ultimate submission to the Lord, handing every part of my life, miniscule and major, over to Him I think this verse is encouraging rather than making my imagination seem inferior (which it technically is..). It makes me worry a heck of a lot less, even if just for a moment- until I let my my mind wander to other things like my Calc grade or why I'm not friends with this or that person anymore etc..
When the Lord holds your future, know that it's more than anything you could ever dream of. He has plans that will push you to your limit and rewards that will make you even more thankful for His amazing mercy and love.
Aaahh and that's good news.

Non preoccuparti, sii felice!