Just one pulse of Your heart; I'm in love.

I will run.
People like me don't climb Mt. Everest because we feel like it. Not even with motivation and the best training could I climb that mountain. I'm just not able. I'm in Florida and I'm a 5 foot nothing little girl. That mountain is for the experts.

That's exactly the opposite attitude I have when I come to a mountain only God can climb. Instead of taking the "5 foot little girl" position, I play the expert. I act like I have been on this path a million times before and I know exactly what step I should take next. Helpful? No. Do I get anywhere? No, I probably take a wrong path and end up further down the mountain than what I started. So what makes us, ME, do this? Why is it a constant "me" battle. No amount of work I do can save me. Not from a term paper due in 6 hours, not from the worst problems I seem to have with boys, and most certainly not from an eternity in hell. I know I have a God bigger than anything I have ever faced, I KNOW that. Why belittle His power by trying to climb alone?

My mom can make some serious cookies. And say I need 100 of these cookies in 24 hours. Yeah sure I have the recipe, but I also have a mother who loves me SO stinkin much that she'll help me finish all the baking so I'm not on my own. Isn't that a small scale of what Christ does for us? We have His Word, but we do not have the power to be self-sufficient.

I hate being transparent, especially on something that anyone can read, but really..I need the accountability to stop trying to climb these mountains alone. Not even the mountains, just the everyday path. I'm so comfortable doing everything myself, being by myself, everything by me, for me. But I need to break it. I am not a self sufficient being. I never will be. Christ in me, the hope of my glory.

My grace is enough for you. When you are weak, my power is made perfect in you. 2 Corinthians 12:9
In our heads it's great to know we have a "safety net" so to speak for when we are weak, but in reality, in comparison to Christ..aren't we always weak without Him? I'm the weakest, hypocritical, judgmental, depressing person I know. But the Lord holds my heart just the same as if I were a perfect angel. Change happens when we make it happen.